A Mother's Spiritual Diary

You belong to My Church

"Each soul bears its own mission on earth. Yours, on account of My bounty, is the sublime mission of offering yourself as a victim for My Church, of pursuing your life of loving sacrifice on behalf of the Church, especially of her Shepherds."

Conchita's mission par excellence is to offer herself for the Church, for the sanctification of priests.

"You no longer belong to yourself, you belong to My Church, and the Word will make use of you for His sake. Alone you are worth nothing, but in union with Me, God will do great things through you. Repeat often: "I am the Lord's servant' "(Diary, Feb. 5, 1911).

From the beginning of her spiritual life, she felt a particular attraction for the grace to sacrifice herself for priests, yet to the extent her spiritual life developed, the Lord's will made itself more and more manifest.

"Do you not want to save the world? Did you not ask Me it, by your blood, even before the Works of the Cross existed? Why have these Works come into the world? Very well, if you want to save souls, there is only one and powerful means: holy priests.

"Yes, here we have the crowning of the Work of the Cross. This will truly be a solace for My Heart, giving Me holy priests. Tell Me you accept, that you will belong with Me to priests always, since your mission on behalf of them will continue in heaven.

"Yet here you have another martyrdom. What priests will do against Me, you will feel, since it is in this that basically associating yourself to My priesthood consists, in that you feel and you suffer because of their unfaithfulness and wretchedness.

"In this way you will glorify the Trinity. We will have the same reasons for suffering" (Diary, Nov. 29, 1928).

The central grace of the mystical incarnation has as its ultimate purpose to carry out this mission.

She offers herself as a victim and the worth of this oblation does not come from herself but from Christ who lives in her soul. 

The Chain of Love is a source of graces for the Church.

In the last years of her life, the Lord confided to her the great message and the great call to priestly holiness which the Lord Himself called "Confidences," since there was question of the most private secrets of His Heart and they contain a priestly doctrine extremely relevant.

I think along with many Mexican bishops and some theologians that when the whole world will learn of these writings, it will marvel and exclaim: "This does not come from a woman, but from one inspired by God, from a doctor of the Church." Here, in Mexico, she was examined by the authorities of the Church, many times, by theologians and persons of high standing. All concluded that it was the spirit of God which inspired her. In Rome, in 1913, even more strongly, they said in high esteem: "It is something extraordinary in the extraordinary!"

At present, the Church of Rome is examining her virtues and her writings. The Church is the sole judge. Henceforth we adhere faithfully and wholeheartedly to her decision. The Church's judgment will be for us God's judgment. But we have the firm hope that, in keeping with the magnificent expression of Cardinal Miguel Darío Miranda: "There will be found in Maria Concepción Cabrera de Armida a new star in the firmament of the Church and the communion of saints."

Yet Conchita's so very personal a mission is also a message for all Christians, since she makes manifest the innermost aspect of the mystery of the Church which is communion, as well as the close relationships her diverse participation in the unique priesthood of Christ possess.

Conchita's mission in relation to the Church and especially in regard to the ministerial priesthood shows that essentially every Christian may become holy.

Without any doubt the layman is sanctified in secularity which is a specific fold, but the deepest value of the Christian being, is to be a living member of Christ by the common grace of divine filiation; higher than the sanctification and ordination of the temporal reign is the mystery of grace and of sanctification.

He is a brother and the spiritual support of the ministerial priesthood (cf. Lumen Gentium # 32; Presb. Ord. # 9). It is he who, in turn, is the servant of the people of God, the service he should perform in love and in holiness of his life.

The "new" in Conchita's mission in the "old," is to bring out clearly the fundamental action of the laity in the salvific design: each Christian participates in the priesthood of Christ and has the mission of collaborating in the salvation of the world.

Conchita was a model mother, wife and teacher of her children, which is supplementary. She has told us that more than anything else a Christian existence is worthy of being lived when it is not lived for itself but for the Church.

This seems to me one of the most original aspects of her mission, particularly eloquent at the present moment.

Conchita teaches us how to love the Church.

To love the Church is not to criticize her, not to destroy her, not to try to change her essential structures, not to reduce her to humanism, horizontalism and to the simple service of a human liberation.

To love the Church is to cooperate with the work of Redemption by the Cross and in this way obtain the grace of the Holy Spirit come to renew the face of this poor earth, conducting it to its consummation in the design of the Father's immense love.

Conchita, a simple laywoman, far from criticizing priests, gives her life for them.

In a sublime elevation of the Trinity she cries out: "I deliver into Your hands by an absolute, total, unconditional donation, all my being on behalf of priests.

"I want to carry in my heart Our Holy Father, charged with the whole burden of the Church, the cardinals, the archbishops, the bishops, the parish priests, the priests, the seminarians who waver and struggle in their vocation.

"I myself am worth nothing, but I possess You and I beg You to utilize me for the good of the beloved Church and of all her hierarchies which I love and respect with all my heart."

Then, as did Therese of Lisieux who prophesied: "I want to spend my heaven doing good on earth," Conchita ends her prayer saying to Christ, after having offered up her life even to her extreme agony for priests: "I will offer up my life for them on earth and I will spend my time in heaven in their service for Your love" (Diary, Nov. 30, 1928).